Issue 12 of Vine Leaves Literary Journal is out now, and includes my vignette “I Have Never Seen the Sky So Blue”.

From the Editorial:

“The onset of Autumn often brings with it a sense of melancholy, a darkness that hovers like mist over an abandoned graveyard. Beneath the fiery colours of fall, there is an underlying sense of sadness and gloom, an endless bounty of emotion that sometimes comes with change.”

It’s Spring in the Southern Hemisphere, but that sense of melancholy seems to have settled over a lot of my friends and colleagues. It’s apparent in my vignette, which is pretty intense. Trigger warning and all that.

Click on the cover image to read the issue.


I am utterly thrilled to announce that a story of mine will appear in Ticonderoga’s “The Year’s Best Australian Fantasy & Horror 2013″.

Table of Contents:

Lee Battersby, “Disciple of the Torrent”, Tales of Australia: Great Southern Land

Deborah Biancotti, “All the Lost Ones”, Exotic Gothic 5 Vol I

Trudi Canavan, “Camp Follower”, Fearsome Journeys

Robert Cook, “Glasskin”, Review of Australian Fiction Vol 5 #6

Rowena Cory Daniells, “The Ways of the Wyrding Women”, One Small Step

Terry Dowling, “The Sleepover”, Exotic Gothic 5 Vol II

Thoraiya Dyer, “After Hours”, Asymmetry

Marion Halligan, “A Castle in Toorak”, Griffith Review #42

Dmetri Kakmi, “The Boy by the Gate”, The New Gothic

David Kernot, “Harry’s Dead Poodle”, Cover of Darkness Magazine

Margo Lanagan, “Black Swan Event”, Griffith Review #42

S. G. Larner, “Poppies”, Aurealis #65

Martin Livings, “La Mort d’un Roturer”, This is How You Die

Kirstyn McDermott, “Caution: Contains Small Parts”, Caution: Contains Small Parts

Claire McKenna, “The Ninety Two”, Next

C.S. McMullen, “The Nest”, Nightmare Magazine

Juliet Marillier, “By Bone-Light “, Prickle Moon

David Thomas Moore, “Old Souls”, The Book of the Dead

Faith Mudge, “The Oblivion Box”, Dreaming of Djinn

Ryan O’Neill, “Sticks and Stones”, The Great Unknown

Angela Rega, “Almost Beautiful”, Next

Tansy Rayner Roberts, “The Raven and Her Victory”, Where Thy Dark Eye Glances: Queering Edgar Allan Poe

Nicky Rowlands, “On the Wall”, Next

Carol Ryles, “The Silence of Clockwork”, Conflux 9 Convention Programme

Angela Slatter, “Flight”, Once Upon a Time: New Fairy Tales

Anna Tambour, “Bowfin Island”, Caledonian Dreamin’

Kaaron Warren, “Born and Bread”, Once Upon a Time: New Fairy Tales

Janeen Webb, “Hell is Where the Heart is”, Next


Pre-orders available at indiebooksonline. The anthology will be available in hardcover, ebook and trade editions.

It’s Mental Health Week here in Australia so everyone is talking about mental illness. Mostly we’re talking about depression, because so bloody many of us have it. I’d really like to see more from people suffering bipolar, or schizophrenia, but it’s much easier to find people who have depression. I’m cranky, because dwelling on depression is not what I’m supposed to be doing right now, but I can’t avoid it. Seriously, by now, we should have a fantastic understanding of depression particularly, and our society should really be doing better at helping people suffering it.

There’s a perception that depression is stigmatised. I don’t think it is, especially for us creative types. A bit of suffering goes with the territory. Among my close group of writing friends, a whole bunch of us struggle with chronic depression. Saying “I have depression” is fine. What’s NOT fine, is what depression does to you, and specifically, how it affects other people.

In my case, I thought I was recovered from the worst of my depression, and I took on a fairly important role in a community organisation. All was going well until several life stressors combined to push me back in the pit, and I totally dropped the ball. I was suicidal. I can say that now, because there is distance. But at the time I struggled to talk to anyone, because I thought no one would believe me, or think I was looking for attention. I made a plan and everything. I had no money to get help. I had no GP I trusted to talk to, as my GP had left and it’s not something you can talk about with just any GP. I survived it, though it left some deep scars. And through all this, I wasn’t doing what I was supposed to be doing. I remain forever grateful that the people I worked with were supportive and never made me feel bad about letting them down. I ended up resigning as I knew I couldn’t fulfil my responsibilities and I needed to get myself well again.

Many months later, I find myself depressed again. Thankfully this time I have been able to reach out to people, I have a GP I can talk to, and I know I can ask for financial help if need be. That the process for getting help is as difficult as it is, angers me. That people eye-roll because I have perfectly valid reasons for wanting to avoid medication, angers me. I’m glad to see people are finally talking about why they may not want to go on meds (or why they come off them) because for so long the narrative for wellness has been *go on meds see a psych all better except for some down days*. Refusing medication isn’t wanting to stay depressed. It’s a risk / benefit analysis and it’s deeply personal.

For me, the scars are complicated. That’s why I need to speak to a professional. I don’t know how to think my way out of this. I’m wary of ever taking on certain kinds of responsibility ever again. I don’t want to drop the ball again, to let people down, because the dysfunctions that come FROM depression are stigmatised, not the depression itself (in my experience—I’m aware for men it can be harder to acknowledge).

It’s not enough to have a vague awareness of “depression”. We need to be aware of the people, and the effects. Have a friend who’s dropped out of society? Maybe send them a text to ask if they’re ok… or better, do they want to catch up? Someone seems to be doing a shit job in a volunteer role? Offer to help, ask them how they’re doing. Be aware that depression forces us to prioritise as we have limited resources, so volunteer roles tend to fall to the bottom of the heap. It’s ok to not offer to be a shoulder to cry on. One thing that makes me hesitate before reaching out is a desire to not burden people who are suffering themselves, for fear it may push them over the edge. I think we need to have a discussion about how to safeguard ourselves while still supporting others, or helping people find the help they need.

Don’t make assumptions of people’s motivations. No, it’s not always possible to see who has depression. Some of us don’t like talking about it, especially when we’re in the thick of it. But if these awareness weeks do ANYTHING, they need to make us aware that people may be suffering in silence. It’s not enough to give lip service to “awareness” without understanding what you can do to BE more aware, and what you can DO with that awareness.

Lifeline (Australia): 13 11 14

Upcoming publications

I have a couple of things coming out this month, so stay tuned. The first is a vignette in Vine Leaves Literary Journal… it’s called “I Have Never Seen the Sky So Blue” and it’s pretty intense. That will be out October 17. The second is a short story called “Labyrinth Hope”, out on October 31 at Inaccurate Realities.

I also got into Tiny Owl Workshop’s Lane of Unusual Traders, my flash story titled “Caesura” will inhabit one of the lots in the world Tiny Owl is building! That will be out next year, and features some fantastic authors (many of them are my friends too!)


If you’re in Brisbane and around this Saturday the 11th of October, I’m doing a reading at Whispers, the QLD Writers Centre monthly reading salon. It’s from 3:30-5pm at the State Library cafe. Samantha Wheeler and Kaitlyn Plyley are also reading.

A link to the Facebook event is here.

“Kneaded” in Phantazein

Some stories you get really really excited about and “Kneaded” is one of those for me. It’s a detour away from my usual fare, a dark yet sweet fairytale. Phantazein launches officially on October 4th at Conflux, but you can buy the ebook now at Amazon, Kobo, and Smashwords, and/or pre-order the print book via the Fablecroft website.

Shiny Table of Contents:

“Twelfth” by Faith Mudge

“Bahamut” by Thoraiya Dyer

“The Nameless Seamstress” by Gitte Christensen

“How the Jungle Got Its Spirit Guardian” by Vida Cruz

“The Seventh Relic” by Cat Sparks

“Rag and Bone Heart” by Suzanne J Willis

“Kneaded” by S. G. Larner

“The Village of No Women” by Rabia Gale

“The Lady of Wild Things” by Jenny Blackford

“The Ghost of Hephaestus” by Charlotte Nash

“A Cold Day” by Nicole Murphy

“Scales of Time” by Foz Meadows & Moni

“Love Letters of Swans” by Tansy Rayner Roberts


Excerpt from “Kneaded”:

I hugged Mama from behind, peering around her generous form to watch her shape the doughy lump.

“Is it a gingerbread man?” I asked.

She shook her head, body shuddering with the movement. With a satisfied grunt she poked raisins into the ‘head’.

“What is it, then?”

“It’s something for me, sweetling,” she said, and I let go of her waist, stepping back so she could put it on a tray. I considered the little loaf.

“It looks like a baby.”

“Mmm.” She smiled at me. “Harold Croft visited while you were walking with Daniel. Annie’s in early labour. I said I’d go around when it was time.”

“Exciting,” I said. “So that’s not for her?”

“No, nor for you.”

I pouted, then asked, “Mama, why don’t other people taste like me?”

She tipped her head to the side and looked at me. Heat crept up my cheeks.

“I mean, when I kiss your forehead, you’re salty. But I’m not. And Daniel…”

Mama’s eyebrows shot up.

I bit my lip. “No one smells the same as me. Not even you. Is there no one like me?”

She wiped her hands on her apron, took it off and hung it on a hook. “You’re just special.” She kissed my cheek. “You’re my sweetling.”

I glanced at the dough baby. “Mama, am I a real girl?”


Go! Off with ye! Buy the book! ;)

So one of the awesomes that has happened recently is my inclusion in Fablecroft’s new anthology Phantazein. It’s launching at Conflux, on Saturday October 4, and I can’t wait to get my hands on it. (As usual, LOVE the artwork by Kathleen Jennings!)

In the meantime, there is a Goodreads giveaway to win one of two copies. The giveaway ends on September 30 so go enter!


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